no. 256 november begins

quietly here on our side of the atlantic.

last night was the beginning of new things at casa h, i realize, as the kinder in our house have slipped into that murky in between stage where nights such as Halloween are spent
hangin' with friends
not so much about dressing up anymore
but
finding themselves
back at home-eventually
back at home for the food treats,
back at home for the drink treats,
back at home to laugh about who they saw doing all sorts of silly
back at home to be

i'm glad that they all came back home last night
but part of me is silently missing
the halloween nights of our past
when going out meant having momma right there...
walking
waiting
laughing
lugging
having momma right there.

how many times have i said being their parent has been a blink for me-
one minute little,
the next...big.

thankfully, our neighbor got 3 photos of mr ben before the night was through.
3 photos to carry me to next year
when a new november sun will rise
fresh, clear, crisp
and big will become bigger
and momma will be right there.



umarmen und lieben
essie