somtimes everyone needs a time out
not just the littles, but everyone, including us bigs...
this week i found myself up to my eyeballs in a situation where i put myself
in time out
hands up in the air,
i walked away.
and though i've tried not to, i've been thinking about it
walking away
and
my feelings regarding
the beginning,
the middle,
and the end
of all this mess...
how did it get to this?
are we not adults?
when did the past become the present?
and the present become a future in time out?
sadly there aren't too many answers when you're in the middle of a one sided conversation
and since i created the time out, i guess it's here to stay for a bit, my choice.
i can't be any more of the person that i am.
i wake up
start each day with promise and hope
work
work hard
love
with all my might
and when the day is done
i'm happy.
happy as can be.
my life is good.
my life is full.
i can't make someone happy who hasn't been happy.
and i can't change the past.
it is what it is
it is what it is
time out.
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
essie
Friday, January 23, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
no.208 baaad essie
so, sometimes, these kiddos just tick me off
and i morph into
baaaad essie
a screaming banshee momma
who everyone should just smile at
as they run for their lives
seriously
is it too much to ask for
one night of peace?
ergh
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
NOT christina applegate...sigh
and i morph into
baaaad essie
a screaming banshee momma
who everyone should just smile at
as they run for their lives
seriously
is it too much to ask for
one night of peace?
ergh
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
NOT christina applegate...sigh
no. 207 "The time has come..."
boy, has it been a LONG time coming!!
there aren't many words left to say regarding the 43rd presidency of the united states.
sometimes, helicopters can't fly fast enough...
with that, i welcome to washington the man, the family, the team-
my new president and vice president,
with thanks,
with prayer,
and
with a heartfelt belief that we have indeed witnessed the dawning of a new era.
my prayers are with our friend;
grandpa is watching over you...
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
okay-so i'm not as cute as christina applegate-it's been a looong day! but there ya go...essie with short short hair!
xoxox
there aren't many words left to say regarding the 43rd presidency of the united states.
sometimes, helicopters can't fly fast enough...
with that, i welcome to washington the man, the family, the team-
my new president and vice president,
with thanks,
with prayer,
and
with a heartfelt belief that we have indeed witnessed the dawning of a new era.
my prayers are with our friend;
grandpa is watching over you...
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
okay-so i'm not as cute as christina applegate-it's been a looong day! but there ya go...essie with short short hair!xoxox
Thursday, January 15, 2009
no.206 and there's no turning back now!
after watching a marathon of Samantha Who-my new favorite show b/c I simply love Christina Applegate-
AND
taking a hard look at the hair o'essie with my good friend Jules
"JUST make the call."
"GO"
"and be ready for at least 4 inches to be cut off"
i went.
and it's a whole lotta more than 4 inches gone from the head o'essie
i can say that i don't feel like i'm stuck in the '80's any more!
but i love it, and i love the woman who did it, and b/c i'm a baaaaad essie
i'll post a snap tomorrow!
umarmen und lieben
AND
taking a hard look at the hair o'essie with my good friend Jules
"JUST make the call."
"GO"
"and be ready for at least 4 inches to be cut off"
i went.
and it's a whole lotta more than 4 inches gone from the head o'essie
i can say that i don't feel like i'm stuck in the '80's any more!
but i love it, and i love the woman who did it, and b/c i'm a baaaaad essie
i'll post a snap tomorrow!
umarmen und lieben
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
no.205 ps pet haven devotees
ya'll are wonderful...emails and comments are pouring in...
blessed
blessed
blessed!
every girlie should have so many in her corner!
UBER umarmen und lieben!
essie
blessed
blessed
blessed!
every girlie should have so many in her corner!
UBER umarmen und lieben!
essie
no. 204 phv pet haven
okay, calling all my imaginary and very real friends...the doodle bug needs your help with a homework assignment.
she's made a blog to help get the survey out there...please follow the link to
PHV PET HAVEN
to read her post and see the 5 questions she'd like to report back on.
thanks ever so much for helping our girl!
umarmen und lieben
essie
she's made a blog to help get the survey out there...please follow the link to
PHV PET HAVEN
to read her post and see the 5 questions she'd like to report back on.
thanks ever so much for helping our girl!
umarmen und lieben
essie
Saturday, January 03, 2009
no. 203: the one where i realize i am numbering my posts
happy day 3 of 2009!
yesterday team leader and i took doodlebug downtown to the hauptsrasse for some healthy skincare items and to spend a boatload of euro on essential snowboarding equipment!
a helmet and goggles for pres-you can literally go "snow blind" over here and those were the last pieces he needed to be legit-
a backpack for the basics...holding the infamous "team leader fannypack" with snacks, with a tricky little Lycra piece that can hold your helmet to the front of the pack AND a rain cover for the entire thing b/c the Germans are so efficient! (it's really a biking or hiking pack, but for skiing...it's perfect...highly recommend folks!)
and finally, what i considered the critical purchase:
a spine shield for my broke-back hubby who was determined to enjoy his day out with boy1!
(i insisted on the spine shield.
he's not 100% healed up, and as i've shared before, he's a hard one to keep down...
score 1 for the wifey!)
when we were out, i realized that i hadn't made any resolutions, so as a lover of lists...here goes.
the resolution for 2009:
* learn to take care of the momma.
this is important because the wii balance board of video game g-dness opened my eyes to something not so good.
for those on the fence, the wii fit does a user profile for each person in your house when you begin the program
it weighs you, does a bmi test, does a center of balance test and scans your body after some little tests, when it's all done, wii tells you your "wii fit age."
i'm sharing mine because it shocked me...after years of classical ballet training, swimming, running, eating healthy foods, no smoking, mild drinking, and what i thought was a healthy lifestyle...
i am 57 wii years old
yup. 17 years older than i really am.
which of course could be all relative if you think it's just a little machine-which it is-i know.
but seriously...
am i that creaky?
am i that sore?
am i that sad?!
some days i do feel it, and i have an innate sense of where my body is on the Richter scale of life thanks in great part to an UNHEALTHY body image and UNHEALTHY lifestyle many moons ago.
(in short, i was bonkers about the number on the scale, and took it out on me...because THAT was a good idea. i know so much better now.)
so getting back to the actual resolution...many people i know hated 2008.
i can't say that i did, but i can say that something about 2009 feels particularly happy.
can't really explain it, but it does: this new year already feels good.
so i'm beginning this new year wanting to
slow my life down a tad,
really make sure i'm teaching the lessons that need to be taught,
listen to more music,
read more books,
relearn the language i spent years and years learning in the FIRST place
so i'm beginning this new year wanting to
appreciate the parts of me that might be a little squishy,
but become more flexible,
appreciate the parts of me that are a little more grey,
but quintessentially "E"
appreciate being able to talk to my children calmly,
but always with care
appreciate the man who wakes up to my mug-almost every day-
but almost never (he's pretty perfect, but i have to be real here) takes our life together for granted.
so i'm beginning this new year wanting to take care of the momma,
so that the momma can stick around for a long long time,
loving her life
loving her family
loving her friends
loving the all the possibility to be found in a brand new year.
i don't think that's too much of a resolution...
umarmen und lieben
essie
yesterday team leader and i took doodlebug downtown to the hauptsrasse for some healthy skincare items and to spend a boatload of euro on essential snowboarding equipment!
a helmet and goggles for pres-you can literally go "snow blind" over here and those were the last pieces he needed to be legit-
a backpack for the basics...holding the infamous "team leader fannypack" with snacks, with a tricky little Lycra piece that can hold your helmet to the front of the pack AND a rain cover for the entire thing b/c the Germans are so efficient! (it's really a biking or hiking pack, but for skiing...it's perfect...highly recommend folks!)
and finally, what i considered the critical purchase:
a spine shield for my broke-back hubby who was determined to enjoy his day out with boy1!
(i insisted on the spine shield.
he's not 100% healed up, and as i've shared before, he's a hard one to keep down...
score 1 for the wifey!)
when we were out, i realized that i hadn't made any resolutions, so as a lover of lists...here goes.
the resolution for 2009:
* learn to take care of the momma.
this is important because the wii balance board of video game g-dness opened my eyes to something not so good.
for those on the fence, the wii fit does a user profile for each person in your house when you begin the program
it weighs you, does a bmi test, does a center of balance test and scans your body after some little tests, when it's all done, wii tells you your "wii fit age."
i'm sharing mine because it shocked me...after years of classical ballet training, swimming, running, eating healthy foods, no smoking, mild drinking, and what i thought was a healthy lifestyle...
i am 57 wii years old
yup. 17 years older than i really am.
which of course could be all relative if you think it's just a little machine-which it is-i know.
but seriously...
am i that creaky?
am i that sore?
am i that sad?!
some days i do feel it, and i have an innate sense of where my body is on the Richter scale of life thanks in great part to an UNHEALTHY body image and UNHEALTHY lifestyle many moons ago.
(in short, i was bonkers about the number on the scale, and took it out on me...because THAT was a good idea. i know so much better now.)
so getting back to the actual resolution...many people i know hated 2008.
i can't say that i did, but i can say that something about 2009 feels particularly happy.
can't really explain it, but it does: this new year already feels good.
so i'm beginning this new year wanting to
slow my life down a tad,
really make sure i'm teaching the lessons that need to be taught,
listen to more music,
read more books,
relearn the language i spent years and years learning in the FIRST place
so i'm beginning this new year wanting to
appreciate the parts of me that might be a little squishy,
but become more flexible,
appreciate the parts of me that are a little more grey,
but quintessentially "E"
appreciate being able to talk to my children calmly,
but always with care
appreciate the man who wakes up to my mug-almost every day-
but almost never (he's pretty perfect, but i have to be real here) takes our life together for granted.
so i'm beginning this new year wanting to take care of the momma,
so that the momma can stick around for a long long time,
loving her life
loving her family
loving her friends
loving the all the possibility to be found in a brand new year.
i don't think that's too much of a resolution...
umarmen und lieben
essie
Thursday, January 01, 2009
no. 202: the one that is really for one
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
now...treehouse:
leather...worn while making cookies?!
WHO is this woman?!!
seriously-so so
SO
not related to the hubby
who made the
BEST
DECISION
of
HIS
LIFE
when he married
y.o.u.
stinky
smelly
dirty
mean!
okay.
i feel better now!
umarmen und lieben
spider monkey
now...treehouse:
leather...worn while making cookies?!
WHO is this woman?!!
seriously-so so
SO
not related to the hubby
who made the
BEST
DECISION
of
HIS
LIFE
when he married
y.o.u.
stinky
smelly
dirty
mean!
okay.
i feel better now!
umarmen und lieben
spider monkey
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