too fast

i can't believe it's been eight years since colin called and told me to call
you

it's been too fast.
and you're right, with your boy turning 20
and mine
turning 21
it was far too soon to lose
alex
and impossible to ever believe that our children would one day
be older than her

how?

the words i have
i have said every year
i carry your heart
because so far away
it is the strongest, most powerful and immediate way
to show you that
i will always be your dear friend
and i will always be
for you
for gab
for alex

and for our children.

i will always
always
carry your heart.

love
e