Sunday, September 23, 2012

ridiculously fed up

would it be considered bad parenting to wave a white flag and say
"Screw it."
you've won...
you think you know
everything
there is to know in the world
and
that the people you choose
really are
the best choice for you and
your future?

would it be considered bad parenting to wave a white flag and say
"Screw it."
you've won...
you are ready to take on the world
and you don't need
a
momma in your corner
anymore
you're grown
go for it
live your life and
i'll see you when i see you.

what in the world is going on right now?!!
i'm exhausted
furious
sad
completely let down
and wondering if it was all a big facade
as i've been so pointedly informed by you two
our family wasn't a family after all.

what the heck.

1 comment:

gabbyfek said...

ooooooooh essie.
can i just say that i love you?
and thank you for the reminder that when i think it is hard RIGHT NOW at 2 and 4- i have the teenage years to look forward to, and then i'll know hard??
you are an amazing mama.
with an INCREDIBLE family.
full of LOVE.
you've done that.
you will keep doing that.
you will keep fighting. i know you will.
i love you.
xoxoxoxo.