mars and venus are back.
kisses and wishes
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
no.218 mars and venus
so yesterday and this morning were FULL of excitement over the concert-
oh my heavens, i even slept with the confirmation printout on the other side of the bed b/c i simply couldn't believe that i was/we were going...
(still going-no worries there)
then
today
i got home.
home is meant to be a happy place, right?
this school year
-since november actually-
home has been more stressful than peaceful
which pretty much sucks ass
seriously.
we said back in the day that we wanted our house to be open and welcoming, today it was the friday typical...high schoolers, middle schoolers, boylies
and
an exhausted team leader who had driven back from italy.
today.
8 hours
which admittedly is a long drive.
he has been gone for some time
with stomach bugs and sickness, taking over casa h, i've been a big bad worker bee
and i'm a little tired
which he and some friends pointed out today
the friends tip-toed into the convo...
team leader, not so gracious, and very "army-ish" in approach
i'm not going to go into the fight we had, but i am seriously
seriously
like m-fing pissed off at him.
he really doesn't get it sometimes
like a total lost cause
he's this unreal f-ing soldier
but the simple stuff is
UTTERLY lost on him
and this time, i'm breaking the rules and going to bed pissed.
he says i'm too moody up and down
i say he's ignorant to anything that isn't tattooed to his forehead
it is mars and venus in our house tonight and there doesn't appear to be a planet alignment happening before tomorrow.
*(&%(#&(@#$&@#)!~!!!!!!!
oh my heavens, i even slept with the confirmation printout on the other side of the bed b/c i simply couldn't believe that i was/we were going...
(still going-no worries there)
then
today
i got home.
home is meant to be a happy place, right?
this school year
-since november actually-
home has been more stressful than peaceful
which pretty much sucks ass
seriously.
we said back in the day that we wanted our house to be open and welcoming, today it was the friday typical...high schoolers, middle schoolers, boylies
and
an exhausted team leader who had driven back from italy.
today.
8 hours
which admittedly is a long drive.
he has been gone for some time
with stomach bugs and sickness, taking over casa h, i've been a big bad worker bee
and i'm a little tired
which he and some friends pointed out today
the friends tip-toed into the convo...
team leader, not so gracious, and very "army-ish" in approach
i'm not going to go into the fight we had, but i am seriously
seriously
like m-fing pissed off at him.
he really doesn't get it sometimes
like a total lost cause
he's this unreal f-ing soldier
but the simple stuff is
UTTERLY lost on him
and this time, i'm breaking the rules and going to bed pissed.
he says i'm too moody up and down
i say he's ignorant to anything that isn't tattooed to his forehead
it is mars and venus in our house tonight and there doesn't appear to be a planet alignment happening before tomorrow.
*(&%(#&(@#$&@#)!~!!!!!!!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
no.217 you-too!
24 July 2009
Dublin Ireland
u2 in concert
me...having a TOTAL fit
holy mess
and maybe a bit of a heart attack too-
though i really do think that joking about heart attacks isn't funny-
seriously, i'm so excited i can hardly talk.
for real
hardly talk.
it's a beautiful day kisses and wishes
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
essie
Dublin Ireland
u2 in concert
me...having a TOTAL fit
holy mess
and maybe a bit of a heart attack too-
though i really do think that joking about heart attacks isn't funny-
seriously, i'm so excited i can hardly talk.
for real
hardly talk.
it's a beautiful day kisses and wishes
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
essie
Thursday, March 12, 2009
no. 216 ohhhhhhh
so here i am watching Oprah and celebrity chefs living with her viewers.
*sigh*
why can't they come to germany and live here (in our oh so lovely subsidized apartment) and help me haul my knuckle-dragging family into a healthier food-lifestyle?!!
i spend A LOT of time worrying that because i work, i am shortchanging my family on the pieces of life that are important.it's my own personal cross to bear, i know it, i own it, and one day i hope very much to get over it!
they all know how much eating at table means to me, and that i do insist we slow our day to a screeching halt to take our places at the table and
BE
the family at Casa H.
which is good.
and i do thank them all for that lovely indulgence
i do!
but summing up the issues of this working momma
worrying is part of my parental inheritance
others may get money
me
it's the worry gene as my eternal gift, as if i didn't have enough on my mind...
seriously!
the food bit really does worry me...
in great part because of my own sad, scary uber control food issues from high school
in great part because of the damage i did to myself because of my food issues
in great part because i didn't STOP the crazy until i became pregnant with Preston-
a pregnancy that probably saved my life
in great part because i have a friend who died, and left her family
-my dearest friends-
to question and hate her illness and wonder if they loved her enough
(WHICH, they did, and still do)
in great part because i know i am borderline diabetic as i tiptoe towards menopause
in great part because my beautiful niece at age 6 was just diagnosed with type 1 diabetes
the food bit does worry me.
i want my children to enjoy food, in a healthy, natural and curious way.
i want to put cookbook collection to good use.
i want to whip up wonderfully easy but deliciously smelling and delightfully tasting dishes that make their little mouths water.
i want food to be a natural, tasty, simple, and nutritious part of who were are as a family...with my own celebrity chef at the helm
not a tired momma who should be cooking right now, instead of blogging, can you say spaghetti tonight anyone?
kisses and wishes,
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
essie
*sigh*
why can't they come to germany and live here (in our oh so lovely subsidized apartment) and help me haul my knuckle-dragging family into a healthier food-lifestyle?!!
i spend A LOT of time worrying that because i work, i am shortchanging my family on the pieces of life that are important.it's my own personal cross to bear, i know it, i own it, and one day i hope very much to get over it!
they all know how much eating at table means to me, and that i do insist we slow our day to a screeching halt to take our places at the table and
BE
the family at Casa H.
which is good.
and i do thank them all for that lovely indulgence
i do!
but summing up the issues of this working momma
worrying is part of my parental inheritance
others may get money
me
it's the worry gene as my eternal gift, as if i didn't have enough on my mind...
seriously!
the food bit really does worry me...
in great part because of my own sad, scary uber control food issues from high school
in great part because of the damage i did to myself because of my food issues
in great part because i didn't STOP the crazy until i became pregnant with Preston-
a pregnancy that probably saved my life
in great part because i have a friend who died, and left her family
-my dearest friends-
to question and hate her illness and wonder if they loved her enough
(WHICH, they did, and still do)
in great part because i know i am borderline diabetic as i tiptoe towards menopause
in great part because my beautiful niece at age 6 was just diagnosed with type 1 diabetes
the food bit does worry me.
i want my children to enjoy food, in a healthy, natural and curious way.
i want to put cookbook collection to good use.
i want to whip up wonderfully easy but deliciously smelling and delightfully tasting dishes that make their little mouths water.
i want food to be a natural, tasty, simple, and nutritious part of who were are as a family...with my own celebrity chef at the helm
not a tired momma who should be cooking right now, instead of blogging, can you say spaghetti tonight anyone?
kisses and wishes,
hope and virtue
umarmen und lieben
essie
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
no. 215 reign
for erika, and gabby-
for their parents
for their husbands
for their sons
for them-
for Alex.
with all the love we can provide
perhaps, never enough, but always
always
there.
from us, for each of you, we remember her.
e
Only love
Can make it rain
The way the beach is kissed by the sea
Only love
Can make it rain
Like the sweat of lovers
Laying in the fields.
Love, Reign o'er me
Love, Reign o'er me, rain on me
Only love
Can bring the rain
That makes you yearn to the sky
Only love
Can bring the rain
That falls like tears from on high
Love Reign O'er me
On the dry and dusty road
The nights we spend apart alone
I need to get back home to cool cool rain
I can't sleep and I lay and I think
The night is hot and black as ink
Oh God, I need a drink of cool cool rain
~The Who
for their parents
for their husbands
for their sons
for them-
for Alex.
with all the love we can provide
perhaps, never enough, but always
always
there.
from us, for each of you, we remember her.
e
Only love
Can make it rain
The way the beach is kissed by the sea
Only love
Can make it rain
Like the sweat of lovers
Laying in the fields.
Love, Reign o'er me
Love, Reign o'er me, rain on me
Only love
Can bring the rain
That makes you yearn to the sky
Only love
Can bring the rain
That falls like tears from on high
Love Reign O'er me
On the dry and dusty road
The nights we spend apart alone
I need to get back home to cool cool rain
I can't sleep and I lay and I think
The night is hot and black as ink
Oh God, I need a drink of cool cool rain
~The Who
Monday, March 02, 2009
no.214 or the with a leprechaun named gaia
it's march friends-m.a.r.c.h. 2009
it seems like the holidays just happened
(since i have YET to remove the arificial xmas tree from our living room...i can see where that little nugget hails)
so where has the time gone?
have we been skiing and working and schooling and working and skiing and
wait-
is that the sound of a teeny little laugh in the distance?
could it possibly be the sound of the world's ONLY scottish leprechaun?!!
why yes it could.
Gaia is coming to germany-and not a moment too soon for any of us-
Gaia included!
we cannot WAIT to see her
even if her plane is a red-eye
we cannot WAIT to hug her
even if we have to smash on top of each other to reach
we cannot WAIT to simply
be
with
her.
we cannot.
so grandpadad...if by chance you read this...
please
work on getting healthy enough to fly.
because we miss you too,
and know that if ever there was a scottish leprechaun, there was a jewish one too...
kisses and wishes
hope and virute
umarmen und lieben
essie
it seems like the holidays just happened
(since i have YET to remove the arificial xmas tree from our living room...i can see where that little nugget hails)
so where has the time gone?
have we been skiing and working and schooling and working and skiing and
wait-
is that the sound of a teeny little laugh in the distance?
could it possibly be the sound of the world's ONLY scottish leprechaun?!!
why yes it could.
Gaia is coming to germany-and not a moment too soon for any of us-
Gaia included!
we cannot WAIT to see her
even if her plane is a red-eye
we cannot WAIT to hug her
even if we have to smash on top of each other to reach
we cannot WAIT to simply
be
with
her.
we cannot.
so grandpadad...if by chance you read this...
please
work on getting healthy enough to fly.
because we miss you too,
and know that if ever there was a scottish leprechaun, there was a jewish one too...
kisses and wishes
hope and virute
umarmen und lieben
essie
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