speaking to me and i don;t want to forget

this:

I never asked for it to end, but then again, I never asked for it to begin.  For that is the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance.  But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets.  ~Richard Chernov

which completely sums up every day we've lived overseas

and no.

we aren't leaving any time soon

i just want to put this in a place where it won't be forgotten

when you turned 18

our life was on fast forward
everything was about
going, going, going

and then i was back on the farm
and you were here with daddy and doggies

your 18th birthday

the young adult you are
the child you were
eighteen years behind you
a
lifetime ahead of you

our beautiful girl.

you mean everything to me
always have, always will
this year stung without gaia to share
just
how
much
you've
DONE

however.
in her way
and yours
she was with you

18.
i love you more than words
momma

wow

we passed the year mark in may
and then before we knew it...

he was at basic
she was graduating
he was gone on a plane

it happened in a blink-last spring-i think
i have VERY little memory of the daily living part
lots to do
lots to prepare for
lots to clean up
lots
and lots
of packing and mailing

a whirlwind summer in the states
the first without having been called for-
an emergency
a sickness
a death
-the first in four long years where my little family and i could
be

busy bees
worker bees
honey bees
(i finally "got' my name courtesy of my darling niece: HONEY)
we moved her to the states
we left her in the most precious hands and arms we have
our families
he's heading to a place for a tour that has me nervous
but
aware that he is protected, and he has been trained
and our littlest...
yesterday was his
the first day of high school
he owned it
he loved it
he is ready

umarmen und lieben
essie