what is it about a new year that
sets
you
up
for excitement
for heartache
for all things unwritten...empty spaces on the calendar
waiting to be filled
so far...this new year..has been filled with more downs than ups
loss instead of light
people whose pain outweighed any of the good that each day tried to provide
my sister in law
my husband
my girlfriend from high school
lost people who were part of the fabric of their lives...
team leader lost two people in a matter of days this week
leading me to say
(yelling if i could)
gone is gone-people love you-STOP before you can't
small things have been upsetting me lately
large moments make everything frightening and too real
and thankful that in spite of the days that tear at my soul
i am surrounded by people who i couldn't live without
