20 memorial days

twenty with team leader...
20 times to thank G-d for his mercy
and my husband's life
20 times to thank G-d for his grace
and my husband's friends
20 times to thank G-d for his intervention
and my husband's trips back home
to me
to us
20 times a day, not just one day a year,
but
every day of our life
to thank G-d
for him.

tonight, as i have every year,
i thank G-d
and every soldier who says
yes
when someone else can't

umarmen und lieben
essie

countdown begins

and we're here.
staring at the blank face of the end of high school (that's me)
staring at the blank canvas of the beginning of life school (that's him)

deer in the headlights...perhaps.

this past week the european soccer championships were hardcore underway
SO many unbelievable lessons learned
heartache
disappointment
and unremarkable joy as we watched our children display true athleticism and humanity, sportsmanship and
humility

too many photos to post
but some of the favorites...right here on my blogger and
always in my heart

umarmen und lieben

essie

taking a selfish moment

in the quiet house
to let my heart break just a little
today
so that maybe
just maybe in a few weeks time...
when i watch him
walk across the stage and
into
the next wonderful chapter of the life
that
made me
HIS
mother...
i won't make an utter
spectacle of myself.

i'm planning his graduation party
and i still can't figure out
where
all these days of our lives
have gone.


heart of my heart, aching a little bit today, trying to avoid the
snap.

PAH
"love you forever-
like you for always-
as long as i'm living
my baby, you'll be"
xoxoxoxoxox
momma