Homecoming

20 years ago on October 5th
we shared a homecoming

every year i remember the look on your face
when you moved
your hands up
scrunched up
your face in wonder
and then you found me

and we were
home

this year i spent your birthday
chaperoning homecoming at work
a totally different
homecoming

and in the middle of it all
a moment where i got to say
"i love you"
"happy birthday"
and
then a little later a shared memory of
cupcakes at practice

and you
my first born
you were on my mind from the moment i woke up
until the minute my head hit the pillow
and at 1820
i said a little prayer for us
for safe homecomings
and happy birthdays

i love you
always and forever
around the island of sodor
to infinity and beyond

momma